Sa mga katulad kong hindi pumasa ng UPCAT…

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Naalala ko pa..nine years ago, nakarating din sa akin ang balita…tulad mo, wala daw yung pangalan ko sa mga pumasa. Ouch. Masakit diba?

May narinig ako nagsabi, may dalawang college lang daw sa Pilipinas…UP and others. Nuong una, eto din ang motto ko..sino nga ba naman ang hindi mangagarap na maging isang Isko o Iska?

Pero hindi lahat ng pangarap natutupad. Yun ang reality, diba? Kaya nung nabalitaan ko na hindi ako natanggap…well, sa taas yata kasi ng pangarap ko…wala na akong magawa kundi magmove on sa susunod na option…pasukan ang college kung saan kaya ni Papa at Mama ang bayad sa tuition…Heeeeello, Probinsiya! :)

Kaya naman, dito na ako nag-aral…welcome to my *now* Alma Mater, Saint Mary’s University!!!

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Hindi ko alam kung saang college ka mag-eenroll ngayong katulad ko hindi ka pumasa…siguro in the end, mapupunta ka din sa UP kung balak mong magpatransfer…pero alam mo, kung katulad mo ako na hindi pumasa…ang masasabi ko lang..AYOS LANG YAN! :) Bakit?

Kasi…napatunayan ko…

…na hindi ang pag-aaral sa UP ang magdedefine ng future ko.

…na hindi ang pagpasok sa UP ang tanging makakapagpaligaya sakin.

…na hindi ang diploma galing sa Unibersidad ng Pilipinas ang kukumpleto sa buhay ko.

So, sino?

Si God. Siya lang at wala ng iba pa. :)

At alam mo ang nakakatuwa? Sa pagpasok ko sa SMU, dito ko Siya nakilala…pati ang mga kaibigan na laging nag-eencourage at nagbibigay kulay sa aking buhay na dati ay napakalumbay.

Kagabi, habang nasa gitna ng Campus Night kung saan kasama ko ang napakadaming students galing sa mga colleges and universities dito sa Probinsiya na nagprapraise and worship kay God, naisip ko tong mga bagay na ‘to…sabay tanong…”kung nakapasa kaya ako sa UP makikilala ko din kaya si God dun?” o di kaya… “maeexperience ko din kaya yung ganitong klaseng kaligayan kung sa UP ako napadpad?” Siguro, oo din. Pero baka hindi rin…

Pagkatapos ng lahat ng pag-iisip na yun, napasmile nalang ako..at napa-thank you kay God..kasi Siya lang talaga ang in control ng lahat ng nangyari at mangyayari pa sa buhay ko…katulad ng sa iyo :) He is in control and He knows whats best for us…way better sa mga plano at pangarap natin.. :)

Kaya ngumiti ka na…kasi ang future mo ay punong-puno ng pag-asa! :)

New Year Ramblings

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Hi everyone! Happy New Year!!! :) I hope that all of you guys had a great time celebrating the new year whether it be with your friends or families. I did had a mighty fun time being with my family at our province in Quirino and it’s always refreshing to be at home…doing nothing but sleep all day long..haha! I hope that was truly the case for me but I spent my holidays travelling through and fro my Grandma’s house back to my Dad’s since my little brother wanted to visit her, then do grocery shopping, then had to do general cleaning in our house {because,well new year.already.} So yes, it was a kinda busy holiday vacation but still I enjoyed it simply because of the goodness and favor God brought even in the littlest things that happened during my time off.

And now, I’m back to work…and there’s kinda lot of things (STILL) that I have to get fixed, like my broken laptop (long stooorryyy..) and other things but I thank God that today I get to have a easy schedule..so I’m here able to process some thoughts with the new year and all…

P.S. Interesting how we can have a lot of deep thoughts sometimes, no? Hehe I noticed that with myself lately, since I mentioned that I was always on the road lately…and you know when you’re in the car and you watch the scenery outside your window…you fall into deep thoughts..well, that’s the case for me! Haha And I realized how I’ve been blogging less and less as 2014 went by (oops, sorry!) and remember how blogging…or writing actually had helped me process my many many many thoughts. So, yeah, here I am trying to get back on my writing zone and process some thoughts. I would actually understand if at the end of the first paragraph above, you’ve closed my tab already since this introductory thing’s turning out to be soooo long. And I’ve been using lot’s of “soooo” I’m getting irritated myself, ha! So (again!) let’s have some thought processing, shall we?!

Okay, as I was listening to the message for today’s Worship Service, I thought that it really cuts deep into the core of what all the things we dive in each and every time new year comes–RESOLUTIONS.

Many times, we resolve to not do some of the things we have been doing the past year anymore, like…

..i will not sleep late, i will not wake up late, i will not be late, anymore.

..i will not curse anymore.

..i will not drink softdrinks anymore.

..i will not….

or maybe do things, finally, this year…

..i will do excercise.

..i will go on diet.

..i will go to Church more.

..i will…

Oh well, honestly, I write them down too..problem with this is, we can’t just sustain it..to last the whole year, not unless we resolve to do the only thing that will make us keep all these resolutions or faith goals not only for the year, but for good…and that is resolving to HONOR GOD.

Honoring God means putting Him above everything and anything else. It means a total abandon just so we could obey Him and please ONLY Him.

Many times, we say we do honor God…but only with our lips. The passage of Scripture that was shares was in Mark 7:6-7.

And he said to them, “Well did Isaiah prophesy of you hypocrites, as it is written,

“‘This people honors me with their lips,
    but their heart is far from me;
in vain do they worship me,
    teaching as doctrines the commandments of men.’

True isn’t it? Many times, we honor Him and resolve to do things for Him when in fact when we do a heart check, it’s not truly for God…it’s always been centered on us and our desires.

And so, my personal prayer as I start a brand new year this 2015 is that…as I write down my faith goals and resolutions for the coming year, may it come from a heart that loves God. That I would step out in faith to see things happen in my life and be able to have breakthroughs only because I want to please Him and only Him…not men, not me, not anyone else..but Him. :)

So…that’s my two cents worth of thought for the new year. Happy New Year guys!

Also, our Church is having a series about Honoring God for the next five weeks. To listen to podcast about the message, click here.

Love,Anj.

The Reason for the Season. Merry Christmas everyone! :)

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December 25, 2014 | 12:45am

Merry Christmas everyone!!!!! The clock turned midnight here in my side of the world and as I was the only person who’s still awake in our house, I got to have the special moment to sit on our living room…slow down from all the festivities and whatnot of the season…and take the time to reflect just what this Christmas season has been and how have I been taking it in my heart this year.

I realized I’m being quick to lean on the sad side of how things have turned out “for me” this season…my brother not being able to come home for Christmas…things not being they used to be in the past…not having this or that..and then it hit me that I’ve been evaluating my “Christmas Experience” based on my circumstance once again..that just how I haven been so quick to see things that aren’t perfect looking in my situation, I have also been so quick to forget the Most Perfect Reason for celebrating the season…

And so, let me be now quick to type away couple things I had to remind myself basing from this reflection:

CHRISTMAS IS NOT ABOUT:

– gifts I receive…or give for that matter. {I know…cliche. But, if I am to be honest to myself, I’ve been truly calculating just how happier this Christmas season is compared to last year basing on how much more gifts I’ve received or given. ps. Yep, this season they say is the season of giving but I believe this shouldn’t be that only season we should give out gifts to the people around us, amiright? :) }

– Christmas “vibe” aka decorations and all its shenanigans. {I guess being in a country with a Christmas calendar that starts at September 01 has its great points and not so great points…because yes, decors and all represents that we are celebrating, but when these decors becomes my reason for celebration I think I have missed the whole point. So yeah, decors or no decors, I can celebrate this season.}

– people around me. {I believe this mindset was the hardest one to break in me…and I believe God is still breaking it–that Christmas is ultimately about being with family…hard to swallow, right? Because what happens when you get separated from your kins this Christmas? Will that make the essence of the season any less significant? What about Jesus who got separated from His Father on the very first Christmas? Hmmm…I thank God that He continues to renew our minds and patterns it according to His Word. I believe being with family is important…but being with them or not being with them shouldn’t be the real reason for our celebration this season…it should still be about..say it with me…JESUS. :) }

After all these reminders God had to pound in my heart, I felt more secured…knowing that in whatever circumstance or place I may found myself in this season or in the future, I can have a MERRY CHRISTMAS because God has made his dwelling in me already…He is my Emmanuel, our Emmanuel…our Jesus…and that should alone be our enough reason to celebrate this season…<3

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Happy birthday, Jesus!!! <3

Four years of blogging–that long already?!

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Today, after a long hiatus from blogging {writer’s block, anyone?!}, I decided to check this site again and guess what the notification box has for me? I’ve opened this blogging site with WordPress exactly four years ago!!! Whoa. That seemed too long ago…so let’s go a little going back the memory lane to blogs I’ve written in the past. Let’s go, shall we? :)

The first blog post–ever!  // Whenever I get reminded with this specific season in my life where God had just to impress this lesson to me, I always ended up being so grateful. Though hard and heart-shattering it truly was, this lesson have greatly molded me to indeed love and love once more. :)

A heartwarming revelation that God is a God who answers even my silliest prayers. <3 // It’s always heartwarming when I get to post things like this that are really personal to me. And there’s no greater joy in the world than it is to get to share the most wonderful relationship I have and that is my relationship with God.

Funny survey about THE boyfriend potential. HAHA! // I read this post with the friend I copied it from and we just had to laugh with what we wrote three years ago! Oh well, let’s just say that some of those preferences we had years ago didn’t really change and some really do! Thank goodness for that! lol

Sunsetssssss here & here // You guys must be so tired hearing me gush about this sunset this and that. Hahaha! But as they say, guys—I AM  #sorrynotsorry :P Still, could you not just endure enjoy these AWESOME pictures? HAHA

His awesome story // I consider one of the greatest privilege I have in my life is to be able to proclaim the poweful message of the cross even by sharing how God changed my life and brought me from darkness into light.

Most epic travel yet // I’m not the worlds greatest traveler but I thank God that He has given me the most fulfilling travel experiences and this one tops my list! I’m looking forward to traveling to this place again!

Whew! That was so fun looking back those old posts! :) I’m really sorry guys I haven’t been updating this site for quite awhile already. Please hang on with me!!! I’ve got exciting stories to share with you real soon!! Hint: Puerto Princesa, Palawan adventure with my housemates, an update to my 30 by 30 list {eeeek! kpop alert lol}, and humbling stories about forgiveness and killing that giant called pride. Stay tuned! :)

xo, Anj.

#Throwback30

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We celebrated 30 years of God’s faithfulness in Victory (the spiritual family and workplace I am in) along with 1,100 plus pastors, staff, campus missionaries together with their wives and children last Wednesday at Sofitel Philippine Plaza Hotel.

Attending this event reminded me of just how privileged I am to receive such a precious calling from God and that is to serve in the full time ministry (not that other callings are not precious because all calling that comes from God is precious.) I’ve been serving for three years as a campus missionary already but has been part of Victory since 2007 and looking back with just how God has proved and shown Himself faithful for the past 30 years ever since our founding pastors started in the dilapidated basement of Tandem Cinema in the middle of riots and national political turmoil in the year 1984 here in the Philippines, I can’t help but tear up and respond in gratitude and awe to God for we know without Him as the cornerstone of this ministry, we will surely be nothing…and I also can’t help but to be filled with excitement for what is in store for the next 30 years…hundred years and beyond for this spiritual family as we continue to be faithful in honoring Him and making disciples for Him.

Let me share more some of the things that I got as my take home from that momentous night:

1. Don’t do things alone. I can’t imagine how different would it be if our leaders did things by themselves and didn’t do things together. I just really can’t. I have a feeling our spiritual family wouldn’t be where it is today if we didn’t learn the value of being united together. And this is a lesson I have a lot to learn about…because doing things with other people needs humility and patience and love and supernatural grace from God. Because other people can irritate you, hurt you, disappoint you at times but they are also the people that God will use to rebuke you and tell you the things you don’t only want to hear but also need to hear even it it will hurt you, because doing things with other people who loves God and more passionate for His kingdom more than you do will not only spur you but will also make you want to grow more and more each day, and because when you feel like you can’t do it anymore you can be sure that they will be there who would push you beyond your breaking point and be assured that they truly got your back no matter what.

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The greatest thing in the world is when your best friends with the people you work with every single day for a long long time. :)

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2. Don’t give up because a day or a week or a season got so hard. Celebrating 30 years of doing ministry made me at one point think those years went by in a snap but of course that’s not true…i’m sure there were a lot of times when the times got so rough, when prayers seemed unanswered and trials just kept coming and we all know when days or weeks or even years get endless like this, the seemingly way out is well, getting out–throwing the towel in the bucket and turning your back from everything and this is,yes the easy way out but never the way to getting to celebrate nights like what happened last Wednesday. And dear Lord, I pray to get to celebrate more nights like these…when I get to thank You for sustaining me to hold on and not let go of the great destiny you have for me even when my eyes faithlessly see only the things that are making it hard for me.

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3. Live a life your children would want to live too. One of my favorite part of the night was the video presentation of the children of some of our pastors saying what they think about their dads&moms. And their testimonies were priceless. They talked about how their parents valued time with them even when they were busy with what they do and how they did ministry so passionately and fun that they too if called by God would love to do what their parents do. What a legacy to leave to your children, right?

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Photos via Anson Yu and awesome friends. :)

Happy weekend, everyone! :)